I have Good News and Bad News, though it’s still unclear which is which. I don’t really want to share any of it with anyone but I can’t see a way around it, so I’m trying a rip-the-band-aid-off approach:
I’m having a baby in 15 weeks or so and I am a single mother, again.
There is a part of me that wants to explain, to you – to friends – to family. I want to tell my story, offer my defense, clarify everything to everyone. It’s impossible though, of course. And what it really comes down to, as in every marriage/divorce/loss, it is a necessarily private heartbreak, and yet a decidedly public humiliation.
In the end, there isn’t much I can or want to say to anyone. It seems that many people will form their own opinions and judgments independent of my actual experiences and explanations, and I will inevitably feel misunderstood. So, there is no story I can tell.